This morning I am dressed in...... t-shirt, leggings and
trainer socks - and will add the finishing touch - the training shoes,
at 11.45am, when I am off for a 30 minute free session with a Personal
Trainer at the sports injury clinic where I attend regularly for physio,
accupuncture and massage.
I had to go any buy the
trainers, as my footwear is pretty limited, thanks to an ankle/foot
injury I picked up ten years ago. My first trainers in 20 years!!!
His
challenge is to find me some sort of cardio-vascular workout that I can
manage. Got a sneaky feeling this may involve a treadmill!
The
problem for me is since my RTA (2002), my mobility has been (further)
severely compromised. I can walk, but only very short distances so I use
a powered wheelchair outside of the house. I can walk to the car and
about the house easily, but the problem is when it's much further. So if
I am going anywhere, unless I can park right outside the door and know
how much walking/standing is involved, I take the wheelchair.
I
have REAL difficulty with standing still, so queuing, etc. This causes
severe pain in my lower back and hips, as well as in the ankle which was
damaged in the car accident and was subsequently fused.
BUT
I know with the weight loss and the hours swimming I am doing once a
week that my mobility has improved - as has the pain. The problem is
measuring how much more improved my mobility / stamina is. I need
someway to measure how far I'm able to walk, but I can't do this by
simply "going for a walk" because if I run out of steam or start to have
a lot of pain - I still need to get back or sit down!
Okay,
okay.... I have to admit that some of it is confidence and the fact
that since the accident (which affected my already very weird way of
walking) I have been more prone to falls. When I fall, I usually hurt
myself really badly (because of my shortened arms, I throw my head back
to prevent my face from hitting the ground, thus giving myself
whiplash!)
Last Christmas I had three falls whilst we were
staying in a cottage in the Lake District. The first two were little
trips and I was relatively unscathed. But the final fall was whilst I
was coming (at some speed because of the rain) through the doorway of
the cottage. The stone step of the cottage was covered in green slime
from a leaking gutter/drainpipe. My feet just shot out from underneath
me and I landed with my full weight on my right arm. I thought it was
broken, and could hardly move or lift it for the next few days.
An
x-ray revealed it wasn't broken, but I was unable to drive safely, and
as Andy isn't a driver himself, we ended up stuck in theLake District
for a few extra days waiting for the arm to recover enough for me to do
the long drive home... and even then I was terrified I'd not make it
home safely (I was driving on my own).
Bit of a long tale,
but the long and short of it is that I have realised that any more
accidents or falls may leave me unable to continue to be as independent
as I am - I can dress and wash (with a struggle, and it takes me 1.5
hours flat out) which is my little keep fit regime every morning!
I
want to carry on being relatively self-sufficient. I want to be able
to continue to do those things I am able to do without help. I don't
want help from someone I don't know with my personal care, and I don't
want Andy to have to do any more for me than he already does.
But then that is what this weight loss journey is all about right? Preserving the health and the abilities I have!
Will up-date you on how the assessment went at some point over the weekend!